Monday, November 24, 2014

Why PURPLE

About a purple mind 

Intro to me.
Facts about me and the color purple:

  • Purple is a range of hues of colors between red and blue.
  • The color purple is rare in nature.
  • Purple is also the most powerful visible wavelength in the rainbow. Just a few steps away from x rays and gamma rays.
  • Purple symbolizes nobility and royalty to most people. 
The average persons reaction to purple is either love it or hate it.

What Does all of that have to do with me, MLuV? Well, So many similarities.  Like the color purple, I too am a compilation of many strong, phenomenal people. Quiet unassuming people, that you wouldn't know were awesome until you get to know them and they let you see it. I love it. Most look at me and see what I want them to see. I'm selective about whom I allow to see me. They must be worthy.
I too am rare. All humans are unique. But i am rare. You will rarely meet someone as complex yet simple as me. The depth of me astounding yet oh so worth it for those who stick around.
The force behind my love will overwhelm most. I actually warn people against loving me or me loving them because it's very powerful.  I used to hate that about me because of the pain involved. But no more. I give up. It is what it is.
My vibe is strong like the wavelength of purple.
You will know when you have my attention. You will know when you don't as well.
As far as the nobility attached to purple, that fits me as well. I may not have the posture of a queen or the blue bloodline to solidify my spot  to the throne, but I am a warrior queen. It comes thru at the oddest of times. I notice it duricng difficult, stressful times. I may break and show weakness and but that's on the outside.  Even as I am breaking down, my mind is preparing to fight. It really sucks too because, sometimes I want to give up. Just say Freak it!, But I CAN'T! Something won't let me. So the fight to do whatever is needed is on. Stay tuned for more. That's that piece. I leave you Peace, I'm MLuV 

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

#30Layers30Days Challenge

Day 1 Start, Stop, Continue
What do I want to START?
I want to start CONSISTENTLY supporting, cheering, and speaking positively to myself just as much as I do so for others. The constant internal turbulence this creates inside me is so unhealthy. Not just mentally but physically as well.  I make tremendous effort to speak kindly to others, support their visions as well as volunteer my personal time helping others projects come to fruition. Why can't I do this for Melissa?
STOP
I want to stop procrastination in its tracks! Even as I write this I've been procrastinating. I think I've always been a procrastinator. I can remember being in school and procrastinating on completing projects. There would be this frenzy near the completion date and I would drive everyone around me crazy because I would be short tempered and generally nuts! I thought I liked this and believed I thrived on the stress. Ha! Age has proved that theory WRONG! I do NOT thrive off of the energy of last minute preparation. I realize that I love the calmness that comes from having things finished and completed and the peace throughout of having enough time.
CONTINUE
I am going to continue to spend time getting to know myself. In the past, I ran from myself. Only to realize how unhealthy and unnecessary that was. Totally fruitless. You live with yourself. Everything you d\do, think, experience is with you. You cannot escape. Face it! Instead of rejecting yourself, its far better to work it out and learn to love you. Its the most rewarding human relationship I've ever pursued.